Friday, October 17, 2008

pictures & ramblings

I just wanted to put some more fun pictures up...
Brick path that runs along river side park in LaCrosse.

Bottle that looked old that we found on the rocks (no pun intended!) along river side.. thought it was a pretty picture

This is a really bright, pretty bush that is right on the beach of the Mississippi River where we put the boat in. Matt told me tonight that he wants to put the boat in one more time before winter and then put in away for the winter... :-( I wish it were Spring and not Fall. Maybe I wouldn't feel so blah and blue then..??

Little horses on the play ground. Kind of creepy I thought. That's why I took a picture of them... I knew they'd look even creepier in b/w

On Saturday I got to take pictures for a neighbor family and it was so much fun. I have a lot of editing to do now! I really want to maybe go and look at editing programs tomorrow.. see what's out there. I put pictures on an on-line program right now and it takes away from the quality for the photo a LOT. If you have any good suggestions, let me know! I'll post some of the cute pictures soon I hope, there are so many good ones.

I got to sleep a lot today and that was amazing! I feel like I'm getting sick, so it was good for the tired body.

Been feeling kind of blah and like a used dish rag lately and I can't even totally explain it. Will have to wear my silly sun visor. It simulates the sun when you wear it for like fifteen mins. It's stupid looking, but that I can get over. I just feel antisocial and like everything is so much work: Looking nice, doing stuff w/ ppl, cleaning, caring about anything, talking to ppl other then my husband... this time of year is tough and I feel like no one really gets it except maybe my mom and husband because they have seen what seasonal depression can do to me. I feel like there is nothing in me to give to anyone else right now. I have to force myself to give and I just don't care, don't want to fake it.
I cleaned the bathroom tonight. That's quite the happening in my house. I forgot how white the sink and toilet were. I couldn't keep up w/ the hair balls around here if I did try. It's just something you have to look past. However, I feel really sorry for ppl who come to visit and are probably scared. It was nice to get done. I clean every Wednesday for someone else, why would I want to clean my own house too!? I can't wait to have a real, put together house so it's easier to clean and keep up on.
It's almost 3am and I should stop rambling on and on before someone admits me for sounding crazy!

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Raychel Marie said...

I know you are having a tough time right now but I just want you to know that it was so great seeing you this weekend. I think that you always liven things up in the group when you are there! You just always make me smile and laugh.

And I just love your pictures. They are getting better and better every time!

Sarah M. said...

My sister has mild seasonal depression as well and she goes to tanning beds once a week for it. She says it helps a lot! You should try it if you can find a tanning salon anywear near you. Even just 10 minutes helps to boost your vitamin D because tanning beds emit the same uv rays as the sun.

heather said...

I understand anytime you need to talk. and by anytime, I mean ANYTIME....night or day.

Outside the Line said...


I get it, I have SAD too and feeling that long, slow slide into dark and Winter. Just rummaged in drawers for some Wellbutrin. My light visor is in storage unfortunately. Get some drugs.


Becky said...

I really think you should up the antidepressant for the winter--talk to your doctor. Alot of people go on them for just the winter so it makes sense that if you're on them all the time, you may need more in the winter.

Jody Blue said...

Tessa, The Lord bless your heart for sharing and being so honest, I love that about you and your Mom. Just for the record, the horse isn't creepy I love it! A little balst of the past. I would love to dress my grand-boy in some retro duds and take a b/w of him on it. Maybe next time he comes north.